The Space Between Agnosticism, Doubt, & Faith

THE BOOK OF MAJESTY AND MYSTERY

Inevitably gaped between the skepticism of disbelief and the hope of Christian rebirth, there is spiritual buoyancy, namely, agnosticism. As a growing Christian, I’ve learned there is so much to understand about my walk with Jesus. Reading the Bible more thoroughly has taught me how much substance, life, and truth are actually waiting to be sought out from its pages. To receive the words of the Bible as merely sentence upon sentence is to mistake the Bible’s mystery and divinity for grammatical symmetry and redundant formalities, which ultimately cost the Bible its very soul.

INESCAPABLE CURIOSITY

Recalling my testimony, I have come to be very familiar with the way God has worked in my soul since I turned 22. Admittedly, God has been at work all along, but He revealed Himself to me beginning at 22, where He planted in me the seed of desire to pursue Him. From mere desire has propelled a deeper longing, a powerful curiosity desperately calling my attention. I can honestly say I do not lack in understanding my purpose any longer. 

However, what is unfinished is my desire to know Him more deeply and intimately. The depths of the intricacies of our Lord in Jesus are never satisfied any more than He is infinite and eternal. Because of this, I am always satiated with His promises. Nevertheless, coinciding with this hope is the honest and humble acknowledgment that I can never know everything—which brings me the thrill of the never-ending pursuit of His heart.

GOD’S PRESENCE IN A FALLEN WORLD

Despite the immeasurable darkness in this world; death, poverty, homelessness, and mental illness (to name a few)—there is a greater, stronger, more penetrable light now than there has ever been. Look at the church, the body of Christ. Though there are no perfections, there are also no limits.

Rationality cannot cloak faith with conjecture, science cannot prove its absence with empiricism, and skepticism cannot fade it out with denial. 

COMPELLED BEYOND IMPERMANENCE

At some point, every person comes face-to-face with the question of their purpose in this life. Our innate desire to seek out and embrace our vocation can become so strong, that the thought of not having a vocation makes life feel intolerably small and pointless. We inevitably find ourselves asking, “What am I here for?” In response, secularism may answer, “What do you desire most?” Faith, alternatively, would narrow this path to what we feel most called by God to do. What’s the difference? The first is driven by ourselves as we are caught up in the world, while the second is motivated by our faith in the Creator of our purpose. 

Our recognition of impermanence, separating desperation for pleasure from God-inspired vocation, is how we perceive each breath as either a gift or a waste. This separation is the difference between the secularist mentality, and soul-compelling faith in Christ. When we are able to see life on Earth as a gift while simultaneously acknowledging its transience, we can appreciate every breath without clinging to it. Oppositely, if we cling to every breath in the belief that this is all we have, transient pleasure appears to take place as our purpose, ultimately ending in disappointment. 

FUNDAMENTAL PERSPECTIVE SHIFTS

Our perception of life plays a significant role not only in what career we choose, but in the way we define our identity, the role people have in our lives, the purpose for the love we believe others do or don’t deserve from us, and how to apply these personal beliefs to what life really is.

Considering how fundamentally these perspectives affect our lives, we either become aware of how important it is to fully understand our point of view, or we do not pursue contemplation any further—a choice which leaves us in the vulnerable position of living an unanswered life full of questions. Living this way, as I have come to learn, is not worth the “liberation from labels.” Truly, it is better to know what we believe, and to stake our eternity on it, than to profess there is nothing to believe and live a vacuous life of ignorance.

If we are not captivated by God’s magnanimous existence, we are disappointed by the conclusion that belief in nothingness is merely easier—even if less rational and fulfilling— than desiring intimacy only a relationship with Jesus can make sense of.

EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE AND SPIRITUALITY

One of the most problematic facets of spiritual apathy and nonchalance is the decision not to be challenged. During my teens, I was in denial about faith in Christ—but then I also didn’t want to talk about faith at all. I had no defense beyond that of my anger and misconstrued notions of who God was—my only argument was emotionally driven.

What I learned from my experiences as a closed-off teen is that, when disbelief makes it appear as though nothing could ever make sense, we need the mature guidance of faithful believer in Christ help guide us to the grace of God, the love of Jesus, and a safe community of followers to help support us on our journey.

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16 thoughts on “The Space Between Agnosticism, Doubt, & Faith

      1. I find that happening more and more with the blogs that make me think! I take it as a reinforcement of the path that I’m traveling.

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      2. Amen to that, brother. I LOVE reading books/blogs that make me think. In fact, I can really get bored fast if I’m not being challenged, so I’m always looking for something to push me a little bit (or a lot). What a powerful truth in that God speaks through reinforcement to encourage us forward in our journey. Thanks for sharing that with me!

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  1. Lance – thought provoking as always- I think we all have perspectives and preconceived ideas that need shifting and adjusted when it comes to how we view God. This line you wrote at the very end hit me profoundly… “the face of skepticism is merely a mask of makeup compared to the authenticity, freedom, selfless motivation, and the transcendent hopefulness of abiding in Christ” Skepticism is really a mask of makeup – power packed statement right there.
    Thank you for linking up with #TuneInThursday last week.

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  2. “An emotionally charged response against God’s existence does not change anything anymore than a child stampeding off to their room challenges their parents’ rules about bedtime” Isn’t this so true?! I am mindful that truth is no less true just because I don’t believe it. Great things to ponder here! Thanks for sharing:)

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    1. Thanks for your comment, Gretchen! I find this to be encouraging as a believer to know and understand how belief does not change the fact of God’s existence–or for that matter, His goodness. Thanks for reading! God bless!

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